Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Well yesterday day was my birthday or rather the day b4 considering its past 12midnight now.. well I had a quiet countdown to it.. Sitting in front of my com.. looking at football news.. chatting online and stuff... Just quietly said happy birthday to myself. To my birthdays are never a big deal.. Never in my family was there a tradition of really celebrating birthdays. At most a greeting in the morning and if lucky.. a small hang bao or smth. Well my grandma never fails to give one to me tho.. w/o fail every year. I was lookin fwd to her visit over the weekend and perhaps whipping up several dishes fer her grandson. Not this year. I dissapointed to hear her tell me say she's not coming and at first I tot to myself, she must have forgotten its my birthday. I just kept quiet over the phone. Came sat, in the my dad handed me an hang bao saying it frm grandma.. I was shocked and simply delighted. No matter how much, its the thought that's so much more impt.

Nuttin much happened over sat. Well then came an sms frm lee hong askign me to go fer a dinner tomorrow joining the class. Since my mom nvr really said anything abt a meal or smth, I tot perhaps I shld just go with my class. Besides, my family to me is a love hate rln. I don't like em but I love em, complicated? try to slowly figure out. Love and like is diff.

Marche was destination. Abt half the class is there... Didn't actually think pple wld be interested but anyways marche was a place the girls wanted. Haha the other guys where all grumbling no money and stuff. Food fer me as just a rosti.. don't really feel hungry. It was good and cheap too Lol.

Then came the moment of truth... what they had planned fer yue hong and me.. First was the slice of cake frm marche.. then was the present. Open.. haha a Bra.. What surprise not? Lee hong got a thong. Well sure enuff i seemed to always remb the bra size.. 54B.. Anyways.. the birthday song already made teng and I so quite embaressed until the trying of our birthday presents. Well ask me fer vid if u want. Its quite funny, definately worth a laugh at teh expense of my embaressment, certainly don't mind I. But well the feeling of being stared at is not smth I enjoyed.. much more the topic of laughters. But well all fer fun. I thank em fer the gifts.

Reached home to be rewarded in the best present I cld have.. Liverpool beating arsenal 2-1. My bros and I went holistic over the result. certainly a day all man U fans(em) and liverpool fans can enjoy together.

Soccer today was to me from a personal lvl quite shitty. I didn't play well. My confidence was lacking. A very poor first touch to go with. I know i always have a problem receiving balls esp high ones. So many days of not playing, so many days of not being in top fitness despite my frequent runs. Well no excuse... I played bad even tho the second half was better. But I do find a str in my style of play. My positional str and ability to find spaces and make runs are good... perhaps too good that it doesn't suits my team.. Perhaps I watch and analyse too much matches. Not that Im trying to say that my team mates suck.. just that they don't play the way I see it. My style is more passing motion.. perhaps like most they prefer to dribble and pass.. Different styles can work.. so I think that's a thing we can work out.

Anyways.. im always greatful to salman. He seemed to understand my kind of play more.. And he's encouragement in the game even when im not playing that well is always welecoming. Esp when some team mates sorta Jack here and there fer some passes that we poor or failure to pick anotehr player out. I admit I might not be good.. But im tryin my best. Perhaps there are some things which I think I'm better and is confident in. Come to think of it, I'm quite an accurate shooter.. give me a chance or two to shoot and it will mostly be on target. score or not.. that's another thing. Maybe I'm into pro-jack mode now I dunno.. but im quite sure I have my strs. Mates don't put me down. I think my first half display was really quite good in terms of off the ball pressing play.. I don't remb actually running so much chasing balls and pressing as a fwd as today.. I thank salman fer acknowledging that. I appreciate it lots mate.

Told henry abt my first touch problem.. he says his isn't that good as well.. I think I was just facing a sorta mental barrier. Perhaps I need to just focus more on myself. Take other's comments as motivation to prove em wrong or reacch another lvl. Must strive to constantly improve. I think when im confident.. I can be quite effective. Well yi yong is damm good today. In my opinion he is man of match.. instead of salman. Salman is good as usual.. when is he ever bad. Perhaps my choice of yi yong is because of the way he ran midfield. Simply superb. He passed well too today. I salute fer his superb tactical job as a mid anchorman and that goal he scored was superb.. Class act I feel. Salman was superb.. everywhere too getting tackles in and asissting pple. Running circles ard.. But sorry mate man of match frm me to yi yong fer his more all rounded play and perhaps just let him have a chance to grab the lime light instead of u, salman u have a lot more chances. I think If we can get Byron to play and sheldon to run the deff.. we wld be much stronger. I always think im telepathtic with byron. Actually I almost admit that only three palyers can understand my play.. Salman, Byrona n Sheldon. But of course.. I hope that I can try to improve and perhaps understand more pple next time.